A Patch From My Past/my faith-colored glasses testimony

When I was a kid, I had horrible eyesight. One eye was lazy, my right eye, so I had to wear a patch over my left eye for most of my first grade year. It was black like a pirate patch, so even though the six-yr-old boys thought it was cool, it was so NOT COOL to me. If that wasn’t embarrassing enough, I was also really far-sighted, so I had to wear big thick lenses with bifocals. And for those of you who don’t know, they didn’t make the lenses thin and unobtrusive like they do nowadays. I truly did have four eyes!

So I had a pirate patch on my left eye, bold black frames, and a great big eyeball, my right one, magnified through the bifocal. I looked like Mr. Magoo meets Popeye!

But here’s the irony. While everyone was going through all this trouble to help me see better, all I really wanted was to be blind to my circumstances.

Why? Because through those lenses, I saw hate. I saw abuse & pain. I saw drunkenness & anger & despair. I saw beautiful things too, but the ugliness of my circumstances shoved the good out of my mind’s eye. I had a serious astigmatism deep down in my heart and soul that needed correcting, and a patch wasn’t going to do the trick.

God was so gracious to show me Himself, even spiritually cross-eyed. He led me to trust in Jesus Christ as my Savior as a young girl, to turn from self-pity and other coping mechanisms and accept His gift of salvation instead.

As I grew up, my eyesight improved a little at a time. No more bifocals, a bit thinner lenses, a little more style in those frames. At the same time, my spiritual eyes were seeing more clearly too. My circumstances didn’t change, but I began to see Jesus magnified through them instead of the other way around.

God helped me to see that He had been there for me through all the ick as a young hurting child, and how He had comforted me each time I called out to Him in desperation and fear. And by His grace, He revealed to me that He was not only my Comforter, but my Redeemer as well. He corrected my vision with 2 Corinthians 5:7, showing my lazy eye that if I would “live by faith” and “not by sight,” I would see Him up close and personal, big and tall—fully able.

If you could see me now, you wouldn’t see any eyeglasses on my face. But I’m wearing some…because my gracious Father offered me a pair. I call them my Faith-colored glasses. Through them, He has become larger to me than any circumstance I faced in the past or will face today or in the future. Through them, I see His light instead of darkness. Through them, I see hope and strength enough for each new day.

What about you? Do negative situations, big, small or medium cause you to take your eyes off God’s ability to help you through them? Is the Lord in your peripheral vision while your circumstances stand large in front of you? Are you squinting to see any beauty from the ashes of your past? Do you see only hopelessness in your future?

I wish I could say that I never put my faith-colored glasses on the shelf, but I do. So friends, let’s challenge one another to live God large. Let’s commit to see life—past, present & future–through His eyes, walking by faith and not by sight.

“I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints, and His incomparably great power for us who believe…”

Ephesians 1:18-19a

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6 Responses to A Patch From My Past/my faith-colored glasses testimony

  1. I remember your talking about this in the past… about the painful reality of having to wear thick glasses and a patch, when all you really wanted was to be blind to the situation around you. It’s a powerful story, friend, one that “will preach” as you so amply do with your thoughts here about our faith visioning.

    How I pray to always have a correct view of God and, accordingly, a correct response of faith.

    peace`elaine
    PS: received your e-mail. Will ponder and pray. Thank you.
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  2. Joanne Sher says:

    I too remember this post from before. It ALWAYS touches me – and is so important. Love you.
    Joanne Sher recently posted..Staying Dead- Monday Manna

  3. This ties right in with the name of your blog and is a very touching part of your story! Enjoyed reading.
    Marijo Phelps recently posted..What Does Salvation mean to a Christian

  4. Most of this is new for me–thanks for giving me such a clear view into a beautiful heart–one made so by our Redeemer.
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  5. Lisa says:

    This was absolutely beautiful and Very obviously Spirit inspired. I was touched by reading Your story and see why it’s so relevant that your website change names. Love it, love it!! God is doing great things! 🙂

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