Defining Moment of Faith

I’ve never said this publicly before, but my daughter gave me permission to tell you that she has scoliosis. It’s been quite a journey, spiritually and emotionally, but just another part of deepening my faith. And my prayer life. The two go hand in hand, no doubt.

On Wednesday, the Lord used my daughter to minister to me. We were at her follow-up visit, the first one since being provided a back brace in March. This was the appointment that would share if the curve had gotten worse or improved…how much she has grown along with predictions of how much longer she would wear it. The brace would be tweaked again, for the fifth time (I think), and would undoubtedly take some getting used to after the adjustment.

We received good news with the curve. No new growth, even a slight improvement after wearing the brace. We were ecstatic. But then they mentioned that her physical growth had halted, which means…longer time in the brace, “probably another year,” the doctor said. I looked to my daughter to see how that news was received, and she seemed to be okay.

When we got the brace adjusted, it hurt. Once again, the roller coaster of getting it to fit without open wounds and callouses and heartburn. Without it pinching her ribs or making her feel claustrophobic. The technician took the brace in the back to try to adjust it again, and I saw the tears start to pool in her eyes. I took her in my lap and wrapped my arms around her tightly.

The first few sentences were evidence that reality had set in with the doctor’s earlier news to make it another year. Then through a consistent stream of tears, she surprised me.

“Well, at least I have a mom who cares about me and can hold me right now and tell me it’s going to be okay.”

“At least I have parents who teach me the Bible and the truth that life isn’t about being happy, but that I will have to suffer sometimes.”

“At least I only have to wear this back brace and not a full metal one.”

“And all of this has been free…we haven’t had to pay for it.”

“And I don’t have to be in a wheelchair or worse like some of these other kids in the hallway.”

She went on and on…about having faith and strength from the Lord and every little thing that came to her mind. The Lord was abundantly faithful in that moment, as He always is, but evidently so as He put it on her heart to sing praises instead of pities. And had she poured out complaints, I would’ve loved her no less, and I would’ve totally understood.

But no, God chose to strengthen her faith in a significant way, and mine too. I know that neither of us will forget that appointment, for it was a defining moment in my baby girl’s spiritual life. It certainly left a mark on me. I pray that in her allowing me to share this, it ministers to you too.

***Oh, and if you’d like to come by the Internet Cafe for a devotional about my other daughter, it’s pretty sweet! Click HERE .

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13 Responses to Defining Moment of Faith

  1. Joe Pote says:

    Beautiful! Absolutely beautiful! What a wonderful moment, for you as a parent.

    God is truly faithful!

    Thanks for sharing!
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  2. Sherry Wall says:

    Laura,
    Your sweet daughter is an inspiration. She is at an age where peer pressure and vanity usually rule and she is thankful that she is doing as well as she is. I know you and Brian must be so proud of her faith in God. I will keep her in my prayers that she heals completely.

  3. Lisa Mikitarian says:

    That gave me tears–of sadness? No. Of joy? Not really. I think the tears were brought on by witnessing the incredible power our Lord can have on us when we let Him–and seeing that happen in the eyes and heart of a child.

  4. Vonnie says:

    *tears* She has learned to “bless the Lord at all times” and count her blessings. This lesson will carry her through many hard times of life.
    Give her a hug from me. Tell her that I love her, too, and that I know God is going to work through her to show His love to others.
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  5. Holy ground. Truly. I have learned more about faith, and the love and presence of God from my children than anyone else. Bless you and your sweet one.
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  6. I’m with Lisa. I have tears reading this but not from sadness or an emotion. We serve a great God and your daughter knows Him well. That’s an inspiration to all.

  7. LauraLeeShaw says:

    No doubt about it, Joe. He is faithful! Thanks for your encouragement.

  8. LauraLeeShaw says:

    Thank you, Sherry. I know this is a road you travel daily. I’m so thankful God gives us encouragement through our prayers for one another. He is faithful even when life is hard.

  9. LauraLeeShaw says:

    That’s exactly it, Lisa. You nailed it. Thank you for sharing this.

  10. LauraLeeShaw says:

    We are both learning that, so true. I’m sure we have a long way to go. Thank you for your outpouring of love and encouragement, Vonnie. And btw, congrats on your cat! I need to come and read about it…pictures too?

  11. LauraLeeShaw says:

    Me too, Paula. Crazy how God gives us the responsibility to parent them, all the while using them as tools to sanctify us. 😉 Thank you for leaving your mark of encouragement today.

  12. LauraLeeShaw says:

    All praise be to God! And might I say it is SO good to hear from you, Julie. I know we’ve lost touch. It’s a crazy season of life for both of us, but I try to keep an eye on how your life’s going through FB and Twitter occasionally. I’ll try to stop by and see you in blog land soon. Thanks for the blessing.

  13. Laury says:

    Your daughter is truly my hero! She’s shared some with me and she’s so far ahead in her growth than I ever was at her age. I had to travel the same path that she is travelling and I had the same tears and frustrations. I remember seeing the other kids in the waiting room and thinking I was much better off too. But when you’re a teen, all that flies out the door when you hear – ANOTHER YEAR!

    I’m so proud of Annie. It’s hard to be a teen without a physical impairment, let alone with one. I know God is smiling down on her and saying, “That’s my girl!” <3
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