The Death of me

http://www.dreamstime.com/stock-photos-woman-emoticon-image16904953I’d had it up to here with all three of my teens. I’m not sure exactly where “here” is, but I was ready to take a taxi someplace else. The negative thoughts my brain was racking up were hitting record levels. I know better than to type them outloud on this platform. The sentence I fumed that stopped me cold in my tracks, however? “These kids are gonna be the death of me!”

I shut the bedroom door behind me, managing to do so without a slam, then I sat down in my Bible reading chair with those words echoing through my mind. “The Death of me.” It hit me that the death of me was exactly what was in order.

“He must become greater; I must become less.”

How many times have I prayed that Scripture? How many times have I asked the Lord to be front and center in my day, in my life as a wife and mom, only to slip into thick of self by noon time?

“He must become greater & greater; I must become less.”

I think that sometimes what I forget is that this message, ironically enough, isn’t really about me at all. It’s about His greatness, His mercy & grace & love, which is unfathomable. He knows our thoughts are futile and that we humans are but dust. The more I focus on Him, the more my heart is filled with gratitude. The more I read His Word through the lense of His character, the more I make it about His ability to accomplish His will in and through me instead of my own performance. The more I pray with the right focus & motive, the less frustrated I get when circumstances don’t meet my expectations. As a matter of fact, as He becomes my great expectation, the less I place unrealistic expectations on others.

The Lord knows we may need to do this about face in our thinking several times a day. I think that’s why the old praise song causes me to spill a tear every time I sing it: “Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face. Then the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the Light of His glory and grace.”

Colossians 3 is always a good place to do just that, especially in light of verse 3: “For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” And as we continue to dig into His Word, the Lord even gives us practical ways to do so. Like in Romans 8:6: “For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.”

Thank the Lord, in His sovereignty and goodness, that He knows exactly what will be the death of me. And He doesn’t let me escape from it. No, He loves me too much for that.

“He must become greater & GREATER…”

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4 Responses to The Death of me

  1. joanne Sher says:

    SO much truth here. And WAY too much I can relate to. I so need the death of me. Thanks, dear La.
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  2. This is good for me to read at this moment in particular as I’m getting ready to go to the ER to beg for a steroid shot to combat the poison ivy that is about to erupt up and down my arms–“For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.”

    Even in (especially in) physical affliction it is right to keep the mind on the Spirit. Thanks, LaLee.
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  3. nada says:

    Thank you so much Laura! I just love how when we magnify Him, our lives become less important but more Grace filled!

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